Last night was Souled Out with Brenton Brown leading worship and J.John speaking – it was a fantastic night! And I loved it being at the Music Hall, such a great setting to worship God in.
Brenton Brown writes some great songs – ones that have become favourites of mine these past few months – but as I was singing I couldn’t help but laugh a little because his songs are quite . . . tame? Not sure if that’s the right word. I’ve been thinking more and more about our image of Jesus recently and have been challenged to see him as more of a revolutionary, more of a risk taker and challenger of the norm. He was not the blonde haired, white robed, politely smiling and gently spoken man with a funny glowing aura that we like to paint a picture of. He was real: he was passionate and funny and got angry and made sly digs at the authorities of his time and scolded his disciples and enjoyed playing with children! He was real!! As you’ve been reading I’ve also been thinking about the anger of God and particularly this week about the image of the resurrected Jesus given in Revelation 1 with eyes of fire, a sword protruding from his mouth and a voice like thunder. And here we are singing nice songs about the gentle, gentle Lamb of God. Made me smile.
At one point during the worship Brenton stopped playing and started the congregation/audience (not sure what to call them) singing Amazing Grace. A small glimpse of heaven I can assure you. Reminded me of the description in Revelation (chapter 7) of “a vast crowd, too great to count, from every nation and tribe and people and language, standing in front of the throne and before the Lamb . . . And all the angels were standing around the throne and around the elders and the four living beings. And they fell before the throne with their faces to the ground and worshiped God”. Heaven is going to be awesome!!
J.John was a really interesting speaker. I was a little wary of his lack of bible reading but he did use biblical stories to illustrate his points and actually gave a really brilliant rendition of the Feeding of the 5000. He spoke about a lot of stuff so I’m not going to try to tell you everything and I’m pretty sure his message will be on the Souled Out website pretty soon. The main thing I remember and will take away (other than a lot of funny anecdotes and cheesy tag lines I’ll recycle in the future) was when he asked us to consider our lives to be like a car on a road and to think about where in the car Jesus was. Is he in the boot? – only taken out for that religious happy hour on a Sunday but the rest of the time no one knows he is there. Is he in the back seat? – a passenger in life without any real influence. Is he in the front passenger seat? – a companion in our lives but still a passenger and not the one in control. Or, yes you’ve guessed where this is going, is he in the driving seat? – leading the way, choosing the path taken. And are you a backseat driver, complaining about or trying to influence decisions?
To be honest I don’t think I’m any of the above. In the “car” of my life, Jesus sits on the roof. That’s right, I’ve tied him to the roof rack. He’s there for everyone to see, no one can miss Him, everyone knows. But I’m the one in the driving seat. Jesus is still in relative control because He shouts instructions down through the window – He can see the route ahead because He’s sitting on the roof, the difficulties and the easier bits, so He’s able to guide me through. Thing is, sometimes I choose not to listen and, at other times, I can’t quite hear Him – usually when I’m driving too fast and it makes it really windy. I want Him to get down off the roof and into the driver seat, I’m just going to have to work at listening and letting go of that steering wheel.
J.John also challenged us to think about our witness and evangelism and posed the questions: What are you doing about being a Christian? Do you live up to the name? It’s easy for me to think that because I work for church I’m off the hook, that I fill my quota of Gospel spreading work and whatever else I happen to manage is like over-time. I couldn’t be more wrong if I tried! My witness at home and in school is equally as important as my work at church. It’s more difficult and requires more sacrifice but it’s something God requires of me.
At the end of his talk J.John asked anyone who wanted to make a first time commitment to Christ, or a re-commitment to Christ, to stand and pray with him. Now, I’m not usually up for that sort of thing. Sometimes God gives me a mighty big shove to go forward when a preacher makes a request and even then I really have to psyche myself up and talk myself into it (I can think of maybe 3 occasions out of many when this hasn’t been the case) but last night was different. As I sat with my eyes closed and he made the appeal I just knew I was going to stand. I actually stopped listening to J.John and once I was on my feet became concerned I’d stood at the wrong time! I want to reassure you I have not experienced a crisis of faith or committed some terrible sin, I was in a good place with God and I think maybe that’s why I felt the need to stand. I wanted to get on my feet to show and to say, “God, I love you! You’re Awesome! And I want you to get off the roof of the car and into the driving seat! Again!”
J.John sent all those who had stood out to the foyer (but we were actually in the bar) for prayer and some bloke prayed for us all. Unfortunately, it meant I missed my favourite Brenton Brown song Everlasting God. Gutted. I’m taking it as a sign that I’m going to have to go and see him again at some point, which I’m not complaining about because he was really good
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